Little did I know that I could nourish my heart chakra with leafy greens when I started to eat them at the age of 28.
I refused to eat leafy greens since I started to eat baby food and throughout my whole childhood. I remember our dining room becoming a battleground every time my mum made any vegetable dish.
My mum tried getting me to eat my veggies by hook or crook. She would try making the dishes more appealing for me by sprinkling some grated cheese on top of my green beans or mixing crispy bacon in my so-boring peas dish. However, these attempts were in vain as I used to discard all the greens and ate what I liked from my plate.
“You’re not leaving this table until you’ve eaten all your vegetables!”
After these failed tricks, she would beg me to try “just a little”, and eventually, her frustration would make her threat me.
One day, though, she forced me to eat to such an extent that I vomited the food. That was the breaking point. I recall asking myself how my mum could do that to me? doesn’t she care about my feelings? Doesn’t she love me? My heart became a little brittle.
That traumatic event also rewired my brain for protection, and from there on, I feared to open up my heart and express my feelings and emotions with others.
HOW A BLOCKED THROAT CHAKRA MANIFEST IN OUR BODIES
The unexpressed emotions I held within myself manifested tonsillitis. At least twice per year during my childhood and part of my teenagehood, my throat hurt and I couldn’t speak, eat and swallow.
As a teenager, I felt like I didn’t fit in any group of friends, so when I was 13 years old and I found my best friend for life, I started to hang out just with her.
She was always very emotionally open. Looking back, it makes me laugh our conversations in the park while eating sweets:
I was 16 years old when I had mononucleosis, also called mono or kissing-disease. It’s a viral infection that causes high fever, sore throat, and swollen lymph glands in the neck and armpits. I was so ill that I had to rest at home for three weeks.
A few months later, I met my first boyfriend, and we fell in love with each other for the first time. This relationship helped me to slowly unlock my heart to love and to express my feelings. My resistance to say I love you to someone disappeared as well as my tonsillitis.
“What happens when people open their hearts?”
They get better-Haruki Murakami.
THE HEALING ENERGY FLOW BETWEEN OUR CHAKRAS
In my early twenties, however, I embarked on a toxic romantic relationship for almost a decade, which left me even more fragile and vulnerable. As a result of my lack of self-esteem, I didn’t take good care of my body and ate very poorly. I still didn’t eat leafy greens, and basically, my diet consisted of pasta, pizzas, kebabs and bags of crisps.
Eventually, I started to develop symptoms of H. pylori, a gut bacteria that cause abdominal bloating, pain, nausea, and cramps, among other unpleasant symptoms.
And that was it. Deep inside of me, I knew I had to change some old eating habits, so at the age of 28, I started to eat all the leafy greens that I refused to eat in my childhood. After a few months, a miracle occurred. I healed myself physically and emotionally.
Words can’t describe the immense shift I encountered. I felt like I was reborn. I ended the toxic relationship I was stuck in with my partner and some friends. For the first time, I learned to love and take care of myself by cooking just for myself, nourishing my heart chakra with lots of leafy greens (yay!), meditating, and practising Kundalini yoga. I experienced true happiness for the first time in many years, and I was just grateful for my whole life. And suddenly, I felt the need to express my emotions to everyone.
One morning I met my mum to have breakfast together, and without planning it, I told her how misunderstood and unloved I felt when she forced me to eat. At first, my mum was very shocked by my outburst of honesty but in the end, she understood how I felt.
The fact that I acknowledged and opened my stored emotions to my mum that day allowed me to slowly express my feelings and give love to my parents and friends. After many years, I loved myself and felt loved for the first time.
Switching to a healthier diet plentiful of leafy greens helped me to nourish and unblock my heart chakra. The excess of energy in my Solar Plexus chakra could finally move freely up to my Heart and Throat chakras. My incomplete emotions could finally finish their course.